I wish you would just listen!

I don’t know what to do…..your protection is what I was thinking about. I want you in my life forever and to be honest I need you now more than ever I may not change my mind because I felt like my choice was the best choice I could make in the sense of not hurting you but my hooves hurt you anyways and I don’t know what to do or what to think to be honest I don’t want you to cry over me I don’t want you to hurt I want you to be happy but I know that being with me is what made you happy…..I don’t know what to do I feel like I made the worst mistake of my life cause I call you not because I need to say anything but just to hear your voice so I don’t cry I guess this is how true love fills and the were honest when they say you don’t know what you got till it’s gone and I don’t want you to go I want you to stay and I know you want me to stay and I just I don’t know I want my future to be with you but I know that won’t happen……I hope you read this before i call you back and I am sorry I just feel like it would be a lot easier now than later but right now hurts like hell and I don’t like I at all just I don’t know I love you and I miss you and I’m soooo confused right now and I don’t know I’m sorry

I know I joke around and I wish I could stop the things from coming out of my mouth I don’t mean the mean stuff I say I guess I shouldn’t say anything at all I always find a way to make my girlfriend feel bad about everything….I don’t mean it I want to spend the rest of my life with her I want to get married and have little babies and raise a great amazon family but the words I choose to say are goon to ruin it I know it and baby I’m sorry I wish I could take all the bad things back I wish I used different words I wish I never ever hurt you but I can’t take it back and I’m sorry I’m an awful person sometimes just please forgive me I love you sooo much and I promise I will try sooo much harder to make hints come out right and I hope you know that I think every part of you is perfect….it’s more that perfect beyond perfect and I hope you know that I’m sorry baby and I love you sooo much

I love you

(Source: pale-throwup)

I need air…I need someone to tell me it will get better. I need to not over react. I need to be in the ocean….not because I like it but because I’m soo terrified of it that maybe I will just drift away and get lost….I need to stop smoking…I need to stop needing things. I need my girlfriend to understand that every day I make a smile and hug her…that I’m really not ok…I’m dying on the inside and I need her to know that right now she is the only thing keeping me from death and even that feeling is fading.

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

1. YES i would <3

What is the closest thing to you thats red?

2. The Dragon my lovely girlfriend gave me : )

Tell me about the last dream you remember having?

3. I don’t remember my last dream 0.o

Did you meet anybody new today?

4. Nope im sick i have been in my bed all day

What are you craving right now?

5. Megan Renee

What comes to your mind when i say cabbage?

6. EGG ROLLSSSSSS

What does your last text say?

7. Yaaaayyyyyy! from Megan<3

Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?

8. both

Do you like your hair?

9. yes i do

Do you like yourself?

10. sometimes

Have you ever met a celebrity?

11. no

Do you like cottage cheese?

12. yepp

What are you listening to right now?

13. I won’t give up by jason Mraz

How many countries have you been to?

14. none

Are your parents strict?

15. sometimes

Would you go sky diving?

16. YYEESSS *_*

I there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?

17. the cards on my wall that my gf gave me :D

Who sits behind you in math?

18. i don’t have a math class

Do you own something from hot topic?

19. yep

Have you ever slapped someone?

20. hahaha yeah

Are you sarcastic?

21. Indeed

Do you have any tattoos?

22. one

Where was your default picture taken?

23. in my room

Have you ever crawled through a window?

24. yes hahaha

Have you ever made a prank phone call?

25. yepp